Well let’s see
November 24th, 2004 by Sarin
This weblog has gone under weird swings. It started as rants, somehow became a journal of sorts, did some music and movie reviews, posted some funny articles, gave original humor, pics, advice, and stupid things. Somewhere in this weblog’s history, I became less and less open about what I write in here. Several factors:
- This site gets picked up by Google for the most ridiculous search terms. This past week, at least half of my referrals have come from the term ‘UNH facebook’. I know I keep a link in my facebook profile as well, but still it means more random people will see my profile before getting into the main facebook site.
- People expect you to write about them. Some might be bothered, some might love it. It might not always be the case, but you can’t tell how much is ‘insider info’ compared to what is being read. Therefore, for readability, blogging about friends is kept to a minimum.
- If I write about something personal, somehow it feels important during the time I am writing about it. But then it loses all integrity the moment when I hit the post button.
- I think writing about something personal is very self-conscious. I know my level of self-esteem, and I’m not going to advertise how little I had of it on one day. I hit a deep low sometime last year, and the slump ruined the relationship that I had with an other. It might never bring itself up, but I have been trying. Some people, you can never change for. But, based on this year alone, being cocky and arrogant is a hella lot more fun than being emo. Because seriously, who wants to date one of those?
With more and more updates, it just makes logical sense to only write personal anecdotes, vent, bitch, whine, complain and such. But I don’t feel comfortable anymore. There isn’t that much going on in my life, and I don’t want to come off as a little bitch all the time. So, why bother blogging?
Some people are just born to do what they do. Tiger Woods is the most dominant player in any sport, the guys in The Beatles were just made to write songs, and JK Rowling was just the only person to write the Harry Potter novels. Some people just do it when they feel the time. Trent Reznor doesn’t do an album unless it’s time, the Beasties take decade long breaks, and some writers don’t write unless they know their shit is good. I fall in the second category. I’m not a journalist and I think my writing sucks. But there are things, hidden in the back of my head, that I just gotta put down. And I can’t force myself to do it, it just happens. If I have a thought, I ‘bank’ it for later posting. I mentioned it before, but my favorite posts are the ones where the words are in my head before I write anything down. It’s just the way my mind works.
In the future, I’m not sure how much I’ll post about personal stuff. I keep too many secrets, and one friend knows stuff that the other doesn’t. I can’t control it and it’s how it is. I’m a different person this year, after getting older, and getting reality checks here and there. What’s gotten me stronger are the numerous times when I write something, check it again, and then trash it because it is just too much. No one has time for that stuff.
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Yeah the web can be sketchy…but don’t totally knock the emo guys! Amazingly enough they can get the girl over the cocky assholes.
You have to take it as it comes. Some people probably don’t enjoy being ‘emo’, they do it anyway, and take some satisfaction every now and then when they realize that they’re ‘the shit’. So, do I.
I mean, c’mon. I’ve kept this weblog for far too long, aren’t I emo enough?
What makes more sense to me, is being more ’sensitive’ than emotional. Which, I know I don’t have to worry about. Sure, you can be in touch with your feelings but don’t make the world a sadder place by moping about it. As far as girls, emotions are actually a huge turn off for men, and we freak out over that stuff. Seriously.
For being a cocky ass, everyone knows at least one person who falls for them. The most I can pick out of it, is that some people are suckers for them because they want the attention… from someone who is just full of themselves. And they can’t stand it, when they feel they are on that lower level. But that’s just my call.
And on the topic of YOU, alot of this post reminds me of how much I whined and bitched last year. It sucks to get the brunt of it, but you can’t change the past. It takes a new low, to get to a new high, but like I said I hope you get to see this person.
Wow, it almost seems like this post was a final goodbye to blogging. Don’t be discouraged. Some blogs are meant for personal stuff while others are meant for more light-hearted thoughts. I find that the appeal of your blog is that it deals mostly with random little non-personal things. Sure, you might mention a brief recap of your weekend. But the subject matter never gets too heavy. Everyone needs that person/place/thing that will provide a chuckle and make a bad day seem a little brighter.
NOW….I wanted to let EVERYONE know about the new thing all the hot single ladies are looking for in a guy. It’s called L.E.D. (pronounced like “led.” As in, “I led a girl to my bed.”)
Living alone
Employed
Disease free
If you have these qualities gents then CONGRATS! You are officially L.E.D. and desired by the single female community. For example, Sarin Va is mad L.E.D.
There may be a few more qualities we require….you know not all of us ladies are so easy
Well, I’m not exactly L)iving alone, so I can’t qualify for that part. I would like to live alone, with my monster queen size bed like the one I have at home…but for that I think I would need more E)….And that monster bed and more E)s might cause me to get more D)s if I don’t pay attention.
Man, I went way off track.
LOL, good points all.