Lack of personality
July 20th, 2004 by Sarin
From recent entries and the context of total entries thus far I conclude that there has been a lack of personal stories or feelings in this ’somewhat’ personal blog. Most often something will happen that I don’t want people talking about. Considering my huge list of ‘just acquantances’ this stuff happens too often. I think part of me doesn’t lie and tells it how I see it, not thinking how it will sound 10x amplified. But when writing in a journal/ blog, because of it’s nature, it would reach everybody.
In thinking this over, I guess the personal in ‘personal weblog’ can just be left out. It is not necessary for everybody and everybody who doesn’t know alot about me to know what type of personal crap I have dealt with, or will be dealing with. For the time that you are here and/or thinking about me, I want it to be in a positive way. If you want to know how complicated things are, shoot me a line. You could probably say I’m making a big deal and your right. I probably blow myself out of proportion more than anybody, with my own head running tabloid headlines.
For the simple reason of writing about personal frustration is why I opted not to run a LiveJournal. Because the whole word ‘journal’ is just so personal that the writer tends to write for himself, and not think if his/her readers would really want to read what goes on screen. My advice to those who keep one, get rid of that whole ‘journal’ aspect out of your head. Noone keeps a ‘true’ journal that I would want to read and think about, because noone wants to cut that deep. So when someone writes bad things, even just to vent, after the last 5 entries did the same, I and soon you stop caring to read.
I’m not attacking anybody in particular. Just thinking about several things that I try to avoid when posting to this blog. I am 21, and not in high school anymore. I need to learn how to write better, but how could I do that if I keep a journal that I don’t even proofread, and then forget to BREAK UP MY PARAGRAPHS. I usually stop reading if things start to look the same, and then I scare myself because sometimes I do it too.
I am always concerned with readability, style, speed, the look of something. Less is more sometimes but how can you have great overall without great content?
I can profoundly confess that the best entries I could post to this site, for a good story/ insight into myself I haven’t written yet. Should I not care that the other person who reads it concerns him / her? Should I care that “personal”, takes care of itself, and that I would be somewhat a ‘Dashboard Confessional’ for the likeness of nobody other than me?
Am I willing to cut that deep? For started, I say I could start adding this ‘personal’ back in one at a time. For the sake of everything that is writing. My question to you, is do you really want to hear more, or was the best part of this visit was for other shit?
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hmmmmmmm, I think you’ve got a valid point there. Sometimes people THINK they want to know a, “deeper you” but in reality they may find themselves hurt or upset by the way you view things. It’s like, no matter how close you are to someone you always have the privacy of your mind. No one has total and complete access to that. For some reason though people expect that any kind of posted journal is suppossed to be a open door into all of that private stuff. An online journal is not the appropriate forum to learn more intimate details about a person.
If I even told half the shit that I told to you, it would make for a VERY boring site to read.
Very boring how? Are you saying that you are a boring person, or that the stuff you tell me is boring? Because I would have to argue against both of those accounts : P
I guess it’s not boring. Well I guess it’s boring for me to let it out because everybody else is doing it.